long time ago, i realised that the more i got comfy/ happy, the more slip ups i made in speech and decisions. so i end up hurting people and also just causing big f*cked up shit situations that i just don't know how to solve.
being angry and serious and silent prevents me from getting into said big f*cked up shit situations. i'll have to keep rememebering to catch myself whenever i am laughing too much or not worrying or distracted and not focused.
heck i think it's gonna be lonely/lovely. self repression helps save lives.
i hate it when my stupid mouth gets me in trouble. like john mayer said, not filter in my head, whats a boy to do, guess i'd better find one soon.
gosh i hate this. i just wanna hide and be alone for about a month.
gosh, the lyrics for that song. are perfect.
"oh i'm never speaking up again, starting now"
My stupid mouth, Has got me in trouble. I said too much again. To a date over dinner yesterday And I could see she was offended. She said well anyway... Just dying for a subject change.
Oh, it’s another social casualty Score one more for me How could I forget? Mama said think before speaking No filter in my head. Oh, what’s a boy to do? I guess he better find one soon
We bit our lips. she looked out the window Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper I played a quick game of chess with the Salt and pepper shaker. And I could see clearly An indelible line was drawn Between what was good, what just Slipped out and what went wrong.
Oh, the way she feels about me has changed. Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said think before speaking No filter in my head. Oh, what’s a boy to do? I guess he better find one.
I’m never speaking up again. it only hurts me. I’d rather be a mystery than she desert me.
Oh I’m never speaking up again. Starting now
One more thing. Why is it my fault? So maybe I try too hard But it’s all because of this desire I just wanna be liked, I just wanna be funny. Looks like the jokes on me So call me captain backfire
I’m never speaking up again it only hurts me. I’d rather be a mystery than she desert me.
Oh I’m never speaking up again Starting now
yeah, i'm the "likes to post lyrics on my blog" type. so sue me. the song's a damn fine illustration of what i'm griping about right now. and i like music dammit.
yes, i know i haven't upddated in over a millenia,
yes, i know i shouldn't let my blog die a horrible death of uninteresting topics.
and YES, i KNOW HAVE NOT UPDATED.
geez.
but you know what, i also know i am in the final week of college. and have only the occasional mah jong session or makan session or dating session or whatever to ease my nerves.
oh gods of procrastination i wish i could take your name in vain. just to spite thee and
in other news, even tho i was in a drunken stupor of lack of sleep, and was almost late for a KLue magazine internship interview...
i have been called back for a final interview at the klue main office in bukit bintang.
it be in the afternoon in the middle of KL.
oh joy.
on the flip side, i have many assignments due the next day, my parents would have left for san fransisco the day before, and i be carless.
oh shit.
and finally thank you all who helped make goin home a sucess, a safe trip to tracy and to all those who will not be joining us next year. what little time we have spent together has made my life a little richer.
this december, i have no rest. got cameron's trip (woo hoo), got caroling with ykls in 1 utama, got caroling with college mates for fundraising, got comics fiesta also for fundraising, and got christmas and new year and birthdays oh my.
and "singa, sihir, dan almari" and "mungkin cinta" be opening this week, and i will not be able to go. :(
HAAAAAAAAAA mei yiou
don't let my griping fool you. i really am enjoying all the hustle and bustle. except when it involves heavy lifting and copius amounts of sweating with no showers in sight.
